Saturday, November 5, 2011

When Life Gets Hard - Dedication Gets Harder

Life has been hard the last couple weeks. Financially and emotionally draining. Starting Monday of this week, I went downhill again with the fast food crap. I had fried mexican on Monday, Wendy's on Tuesday, KFC on Wednesday night, and pizza Thursday. Friday I finally got around to eating the soup I'd prepared for the week. Today I had a rare roast beef sandwich and pudding for dessert. My body finally got around to punishing me tonight.

I started following Drew's journey of Fit 2 Fat 2 Fit online. The whole concept is interesting to me. I've never struggled with being overweight but I'm blessed with a deceiving body image. People see me and assume I'm healthy and fit when really I'm not much better off than overweight people. I took a look at Drew's suggested meal plans and went right back to my slump of not being able to afford what it takes to follow along. I'm still going to get away from fast food and processed foods but I wish I could afford to do the whole "clean food" cleanse that helps people detox so effectively.

So I'm back to my normal diet again. Soups for lunch (I freaking made a month's worth of 2 types of soup, I shouldn't let it go to waste!). Non-processed meals for dinner. No more eating when I'm not hungry. Getting my minimum of 48oz of water a day.

As for the workouts - I am not impressed with my lack of self-motivation to workout on my own. It shouldn't be a surprise. I generally lack self-motivation in other areas as well. I don't know why it makes a difference to see other people doing the same workout on a television screen but it does. I have yet to do the Spartacus Workout and I'm not going to burn another week lying to myself that it will happen. I've got a friend who offered to loan me her Billy Blank dvds and I think I'll take her up on the offer. I don't feel ready for Insanity but I'm beyond a Wii step workout.

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